By Alayna Wort

Had I known I was going to have guests
At 4am I would have tidied up.

Had I known,
I was going to have guests at 4am,
I would have tidied up.

I would have tidied up,
For the sake of the guests at 4am,
If I had known.

At 4am I would have tidied up,
Had I known I was going to have guests.

What would I have tidied up?
Why at 4am?
Would knowing have made a difference?
Why do these guests matter?

External signs of
Anxiety
Depression
Tears
And the dank, musty odor
Of one who has felt too alone
For far too long.

The mess is at its worst,
At 4am.
That is why I tidy
For the guests at 4am
Would be far more intrusive
If I did not.

Knowing their imminent arrival
Has made all the difference
In how I tidy
For the guests at 4am
Knocking at my door.

I wish the guests did not matter,
But if ever I am to discover
Healing
Breathing
Flourishing
Life
Then I must tidy.